Blah blah, fucking blah.

Excuse the initial obscenities, please.
 (As much as I hate to go into some sort of negative rant, that's exactly what I'm about to do. So I thoroughly apologize.)

I am so sick and tired of putting people on pedestals in my life, and giving them my time and consideration, only to be left by the way side to crash and burn alone. And that's why I can't post anything upbeat or inspirational. It's hard to even pretend to be happy when you're utterly miserable. It's kind of like, my world is moving on without me. My life is continuing and I am not making the executive decisions here! And I think it may possibly be on repeat everyday. Hence why everything feels so..."blah". Unappreciative people can make you feel lower than a blatant asshole any day, and when it happens continually it's probably worse than your occasion herpes flare up. I'd love to be able to sit here ant type fantastic words of wisdom and hope...but I just can't.

Now what?

It seems I have reach that point in my life where I have no idea where to go, who to talk to, or just what the hell I am supposed to be doing with my life. I'd say I'm at an utter stand still. Again, I haven't posted in a while because I don't think many people really care about what I have to say. But I suppose I'll continue trying to post as much as I can. Blogging can actually be quite the challenge, because obviously I kinda suck at it. But alas I just wanted to finally verbalize my feelings of being lost and confused, because maybe someone out there can save me.

I love myself. So what?

Ahhhh guys I am beyond sorry I haven't posted anything in over a month. This month has been pretty awful, I have been learning to take my own advice. But I will say the one thing that's made this interesting is that I got my mop chopped, and that's been quite the doozy for some people. As you can see I have the before and after pictures, feed back is welcome! And the thing I've been working on the most is loving myself. My gooood friend Bret has been helping with that every bit of the way. If that's an issue for you, I'd say find a good friend who'll help you in any way. And I guess that's the main focus of this post. Do different things with your appearance until you're happy with who you are. It never matters what people say to or about you, the truth is what you believe to be true. This is a short and belated post but I just wanted to let you know I'm still here and will get my shit straight.

Remember That I Love You.

The song that's on my mind tonight (this morning?) is So Nice So Smart by Kimya Dawson. Mainly because of the chorus. I don't have any great words of wisdom tonight, just a heavy heart. It seems as of late the bad days outweigh the good ones. And it's easy to write about how to get happy when you are happy. But on days like today, I just can't help but to get down and out. And what's worse is when you just don't know how to deal with it, like me. So I'd really like for someone, ANYONE to feel free to jump in and save the day with some sort of mystical powers. I doubt I'll be posting much in the near future, regretfully. Sorry guys.