Blah blah, fucking blah.

Excuse the initial obscenities, please.
 (As much as I hate to go into some sort of negative rant, that's exactly what I'm about to do. So I thoroughly apologize.)

I am so sick and tired of putting people on pedestals in my life, and giving them my time and consideration, only to be left by the way side to crash and burn alone. And that's why I can't post anything upbeat or inspirational. It's hard to even pretend to be happy when you're utterly miserable. It's kind of like, my world is moving on without me. My life is continuing and I am not making the executive decisions here! And I think it may possibly be on repeat everyday. Hence why everything feels so..."blah". Unappreciative people can make you feel lower than a blatant asshole any day, and when it happens continually it's probably worse than your occasion herpes flare up. I'd love to be able to sit here ant type fantastic words of wisdom and hope...but I just can't.