Remember That I Love You.

The song that's on my mind tonight (this morning?) is So Nice So Smart by Kimya Dawson. Mainly because of the chorus. I don't have any great words of wisdom tonight, just a heavy heart. It seems as of late the bad days outweigh the good ones. And it's easy to write about how to get happy when you are happy. But on days like today, I just can't help but to get down and out. And what's worse is when you just don't know how to deal with it, like me. So I'd really like for someone, ANYONE to feel free to jump in and save the day with some sort of mystical powers. I doubt I'll be posting much in the near future, regretfully. Sorry guys.

I confess.

Just so we're all clear. I am not this happy person that I seem like when I write. I told a friend the reason I blog is so I can mask who I am and that maybe I'll actually like the person that writes all this great and encouraging stuff. I am typically a Debbie Downer, a Melancholy Molly, a Judy Attitudy, a Negative Nancy, or maybe even a Sassy Susie. If anyone knows me personally and reads my blog, please know I'm trying to be this person. Not the person you see face to face. I'm trying to figure out how to be happy on my own. I'm brawling with my own lack of confidence. I have none of this figured out, so please don't think it's all just a front. I was pretty hurt when I was told that. I know how bad it sucks to not ever think you're good looking. I've been there looking in the mirror hating everything I see. I'm trying to get better so I can hopefully show someone that you don't have to hate who you are, or wallow in self pity like I do regularly. So...now you know.

The Harsh Truth Is...

You're only as pretty as you feel. It doesn't matter what you ACTUALLY look like to other people by any means. If you don't feel good about yourself , nothing else matters. People can tell you that you look stunning but it seems insignificant and petty. So to build up some self esteem (which is something I've always battled), when you get out of the shower go look at yourself. Seriously, a solid minute or two. And every time that you do this name one thing you don't entirely hate about yourself. Eventually it will turn into things you love about yourself.  The deal is, when you've just got out of the shower you are totally exposed and uncensored. If you can find something good out of all the bad, then it must not be so bad. Most of us can't stand to look at ourselves naked for more than maybe 15 seconds. During this time you can also use constructive criticism. Don't talk down on yourself, just things like "I'd really like to tone my thighs up, so I should jog more." That is probably an unrealistic sentence, but it's a great start. Only positive thoughts. This is also something I've done and I must admit, I currently hate being clothed. So it obviously has done me a great bit of good. Let me know how it works for those of you who actually attempt it!

Here's the secret to being happy.

Get stable, reliable people in your life that you can trust. Done.

Awesome Thing Of The Day: Fan Remote Control

This is an exact picture of my remote. Be jealous.

So today I played hooky from all my responsibilities because I am sick. And when I am sick I am as helpless and lazy as a newborn. Most of my day was spent wallowing in bed wondering why I felt so horrible, and then in between my pity rants, sleeping. As the day trudged on it got outrageously hot in my room and I MUST be under my blanket when in my bed. This posed quite the problem since my light switch is a good...6 feet away. And I was not about to get up for anything. I couldn't possibly take any time away from my self pity to simply get up and turn on my fan. I look to my left and what do I see? The most beautiful piece of technology ever.  My fan/light remote controller. So thank you Hampton Bay for enabling my (and the rest of America's)  lackadaisical habits.

Song of the day for this post- The Lazy Song by Bruno Mars. Oh yes.

How To: Get In A Good Mood #4

One of the coolest things happened to me today. An old friend of mine texted me just to let me know that he enjoyed reading my blog and that he missed me. And the we proceeded to have a great conversation over Skype. And I was in a terribly pissy mood beforehand so it most definitely made things much better. It was so great reconnecting with an old friend and just seeing how each other had changed. So if there is someone who isn't in your life as much as you'd like them to be, shoot them a text, email, facebook message...any sort of communication would probably be okay. Better yet, plan a coffee date or some small gathering. It will do wonders for the soul. Thank you, Chris!

Non-Awesome Thing Of The Day: Bra

This probably shouldn't be posted on the internet, but I don't care. I have a serious disdain for that particular piece of undergarmentry seen above (probably not even a real word). So check it, just sitting around minding my own business and the life-less piece of fabric decides it does not want to be joined. And separates! Behind my very back! Life would just be a LOT easier with out them. I did nothing to deserve that betrayal, brassiere. I'm onto your game. Eventually, you'll be obsolete anyway.

How To: Get In A Good Mood #3

Another way I have found that is an instant mood lifter is breaking up your routine.Your brain can get used to doing the same dull thing everyday so this is basically throwing it for a curve ball.  If you have the same old cup o' joe in the morning, wake up a little bit early and go to your local cafe for some fancy caffeine. If you usually wear your hair straight, curl it one morning and see people's reactions! I've done that one a lot, and the feed back was lovely. Wear a lot of jeans? Try going to a consignment store and getting a cute summer dress and showing off your legs! Or for guys, change the style of your facial hair. It can grow back pretty easily and there are some pretty cool ways to style a beard. Some of my favorites are definitely muttonchops or handle bar mustache.  Any change is welcome in this case! There are millions of ways to play this card, and no change is too small or too big. So do something different, for yourself. I can promise this will help.